Once upon a time, there was two kids…

Boy am I sleepy :).

I’m going back to sleep after this. And I’m not waking up until…I…feel…tired…of sleeping.

This morning (it technically still is morning)…I went to check on Lizzys mommy. She’s doing well. I always like her company. She has that old school style, that I prefer myself. I see strength in her, wisdom and an overall beautiful nature. She’s important in my life story too because from her, sprung forth two people (Three actually but I don’t really know Liz’s older sister as much as I know Liz and Ms. 19 since I don’t get to hang out with her older sister). One is the most exciting person I’ve met, Ms. 19, and the other is my Goddess (self explanatory). I think she did a fine job at raising them. Life is hard, and your family can make it worst, so it’s good they have a good personal family relationship amongst themselves. She’s also a woman who loves to work hard. I don’t speak of her much because she’s very quiet in my life story, but she’s there :). She has facial features, similar to Liz’s, with a mix of Ms. 19.

yesterday I spent time in the “Family gym room”. I wanted to try something new so me and Mike-O went and bought a skateboard. We never really owned a skateboard, but Mike-O knows how to ride one. You know, I thought it would be harder to ride a skateboard, but turns out it isn’t. The only thing is the balance part, and if you have cat-like reflexes like I do :D…then your chances of hitting the floor is slim. I did lose balance and had to hop off the board many times quickly before I went belly up, but it’s because of those reflexes, I hadn’t hit the ground. Not even once. In a course of about 4 hours, I had mastered skateboarding :)….well…you know…the basics. Maybe it’s from the result of knowing how to ride a bike. Once you get the whole balance thing down, it’s pretty much fun zone from there.

So I enjoyed myself learning to skateboard and I got a work out too. Most importantly, I got to enjoy a new experience and now I can say that I know how to skateboard :D.
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On the subject of experiences…

Me and Liz were sitting on her (their) bed last night and we were joking that because of the high prices in airlines, we won’t probably ever get another chance to go to Italy. But thats Okay, because there are places in America that I haven’t been to. It’s still expensive, but oh well.

We had a great time there. Italy was like disneyland to me. It did what Liz wanted it to do, to reconnect me with the natural beauty of the world.

Next thing you know, the economy is in hell and …well you know the rest.

When Pharaoh walked in the room, the first thing he did was kiss his wife and myself.
I found that comforting, and reassuring, because….years ago….that would’ve never happened. Public display of emotions was not a good thing to him. His focus was so much on keeping us happy that he almost lost his sense of emotion with it. But then again, keeping us happy WAS an emotion. I guess he was just too focused and tense on that particular subject that he lost his care of emotions for himself. Anyways it doesn’t matter now because like I always say, these days, he’s at peace, he’s happy and theres nothing that bothers him.

I had such a wonderful time watching TV with Liz last night, and chatting and laughing, and the next thing you know…I went to bed late and eventually didn’t go at all. Plus I still have that stale muscle feeling from the workout…you know…the tired muscle feeling. So, in a few, when I do go to bed, It’s gonna be hard to wake me up.

My memories seem to always be based on emotional feelings and senses. And, these moments I’m creating, are special to me.
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I think Liz got a lot of her personal strength from her mother. I’ve seen different aspects of strength from Liz. I’ve seen the physical and emotional.

Woot…..the sun isn’t out :D.

See, this is one of the occasions that I don’t mind when the sun isn’t out. I sleep more comfortably when there is a Mike next to me and the room is dark.

Speaking of Mike….. I just happened to notice his physical appearance yesterday and…….and….it’s like…wow….I can’t believe how grown he is now. I think that’s flipping amazing. He was just this tiny little kid who loved playing around and was the bravest little cuteness I’ve seen. Now he’s tall, strong and this and that and it’s like….where’d time go.

The otherday he insisted me putting on some beautiful clothing. He insisted that I poofed myself up for him. He explained to me, romantically (yeah he’s a really good smooth talker)….that the more beautiful I feel, the more happy and in love he feels. And ….that…is the truth.  It works the otherway around as well. Sooo….I did my hair in his favorite style, put on my favorite jeans and one of those nice tops I liked, and he surprised me by taking us out to dinner.

Before we entered this particular joint, New York City is flooded with cards on every block, so while we were passing by them, I just glanced over to one and noticed me and Mikey walking together.

I said to myself….Oh my god…is that really me? Is that him…is that us?…..

In my mind, it feels like yesterday, me and Mikey were exploring and playing games and we were the same height………now I’ve turned into a woman and he’s a man.

It wasn’t sadness though, it was happiness. If someone would’ve told me a few years ago that I’d ever be able to love and appreciate myself in this world ever again, I wouldn’t know if I could believe. There was just too much madness around……too much poison…..too much conflicts. I had to dispose of any idea of individual appreciation. Luckily, and thankfully, it’s all over.

But I guess, thats why I was so surprised. I looked at these two dashing individuals in the reflection, and felt happy for them……because….small things don’t matter anymore. I am happy now and I’m at peace. I have seen the extent of life (there is definitely more, but I’m sufficiently exposed)…I am peaceful…I have found…my….self. I understand things.

I guess, when I looked into the car, the reason why it was so surprising was because I saw myself from a third body, not a reflection. I didn’t see a reflection, I just saw a third perspective.

So we, the not so kids anymore-but still kids in heart- and cant tell the difference…..went into the Restuarant and had a lovely time. Mikey, woo-ed me with all his romantic words, and we dicussed our life….our day…our future…

Oh and the food was good :). Mike-O…being the lil hustler he is…knows how to get cheap, but good meals. When it comes to money management, Mike is always the man. You know, even in a recession, the island is still beautiful. The truth is, it always was and always will be. The other truth is, the economic market goes up and down like this constantly, through history……this isn’t the end of the world. It only hurts people who are materialistically attached. Excluding those in mortgage issues, etc. Well…lets hope people learn not to revoke laws….that were created in order to prevent a second great depresion….no matter how good or bad our economy is doing.

Which reminds me. If the government is good at anything, it’s keeping the people in the dark(and hold the individual responsible for keeping themselves in the dark). For example?….God. They’ll talk about abortions—-…actually get this right…….they can talk about abortions all they want….pro life or choice….but nobody gives a—-….because nothings not gonna change. It’s not a subject that you change. The only reason they discuss it is because it reveals their personalities, but it’s not gonna change anything.

What SHOULD be done?…..Bring up the subject of god. Nobody wants to talk about God because its a touchy subject, but you’ll talk about abortions. IF…the world was exposed more to the CONCEPTS of god (because there are alot of people who DONT believe…but that is FINE)….then maybe we wouldn’t have to worry about abortions as much as we are. Just like the mafia….keeping people in the dark…and keeping their fingers on them…and taxing them too much. Gee Golly…our government is a monopoly.

i don’t got time to waste my thoughts on nonsense…..so back to the happiness…..

And we came back home and had a good night and we spent some of that night with the family members. Everything was peachy and it makes me happy because I get to sear it into my brain as a new memory.
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I just can’t stop thinking about Liz and Eric. I love them both so much. I just love trying to make them as comfortable as possible. I win…because…my dream…my ultimate dream….was to have a family…..and now I do…and now its my GOAL to keep it alive and happy and nurture it so itll be mine forever.

I can’t explain it. It just makes me feel so good to see them happy. It’s like my own natural high.

Hm, I could go on and on about how happy I am but then I’d ……just go on and on :)

I love mike…because he loves me and all my oddnesses…..and I love Life….and I love myself.

And I love to eat….so Ill have to put that sleep, second to food. So imma go make breakfast, sleep, wake up, family, eat, and sleep :). Maybe not in that order but…yeah.

Signed
Mel-Ankhamun II

The Legendary Fridge Raiders…

*Blinks* I can’t believe I have one day left to be at home. I can’t believe the time ticked so quick. Next thing you know, I’ll be 19, and then…oh shucks, who cares…

Soo…tonight me and my family each took shot glasses and knocked back the juice from the bitter melon. This has been a family practice since I could remember. In case you’re unfamiliar with it, In Spanish we call it Carela, which is similar to the name the Caribbeans use, Karila. I mightve spelled it wrong, but whatever, thats how it sounds. It’s one of thee most bitter vegetable known to man. So what we do is I cure it into a lil bottle and drink to juice once in a while. The bitterness has medicinal uses and that’s why we drink small shots of it, every now and then. When we were littler, me and Mike didn’t like it, but it becomes an acquired taste, specifically because we know it’s beneficial uses. It’s never wise to drink too much of it, but the stuff is good for those who have certain blood related medical issues.

You know, it’s these odd little traditions that make you question western pills and medicines. For example, how many people know that a small amount of lime juice can actually lower stress levels. These things are hidden to us, because commercials cater to marketable products.

Best day of my life was when I decided to stop listening to doctors and taking pills and running to them for every scratch.
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The other night a certain family related event made me burst into a raging sadness and crying. I have to admit, this is the first time in over a year that I’ve had tears leak out of my eyes. The good thing about my mind, that I’ve always admired, is it’s rapidity in thought. The bad thing, is also the same thing, specically when it comes to emotions. When an emotional thought hits my brain, tons of other chained events resurface.

My grievance was with the past and the suffering we…..our family…had to take…
It made me so sad, to think about another persons life….and see all the pain they had to endure…..
My sadness was not about myself, it was about the ones I loved….
Ever since I could remember, my emotional thoughts have always been about others…

You know I reconciled my thoughts by forcing myself to come back to the present and remembering that we as a unit have made great strides and efforts. We are better and happier than any generation before us. What made me the most happiest was the realization that I can sustain this happiness.

Life is….short. Life…ticks very very very quickly……and….I intend to spend it……with my family as much as possible.
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Which leads me into this…

This morning me and Mikey decided to go plunder the fridges of the folks inside the Palace :). So we started with our favorite place, the Pharaoh and Queens apartment :D. Interestingly enough, the door was open. This was early in the morning so I was curious to see what they were up to so early.

You guys know the official rules of the Palace…If the Door is open, that means we (The legendary Fridge Raiders :D)…can enter.

So we decided to goof around. We were in the hallway still before entering. So we literally crept slowly inside to see if anyone was awake. Snuck slowly inside the living room….Mikey rolls to the kitchen like a ninja….(LMAO)…..and I take the alternative way to secure the perimeter.

Lol…reminds me of when we were little, me and Mike would sneak to the fridge and steal food and go back to our room.

Anyways so we raided the fridge for breakfast and afer we figured no one was gonna come out and catch us, it kinda got boring so we just took over the the entire apartment.

Now the most interesting part was when we noticed that their bedroom was actually open.

My first thought was that maybe we shouldn’t go in there because…..who knows….maybe they just had a very lusty night (You know how kids are…*rolling eyes*)…..and forgot to close their room door…..

And then I remembered who I was dealing with and new that it was okay.

So we tip toed into their bedroom…..Which is a very very beautiful bedroom. Hell….their apartment is a beautiful place in general.

We didn’t turn the lights on because the light of day was visible enough for us.

And I saw….the most….beautifullest sight ever……I mean…it was so beautiful that it made my heart feel bubbly. My queen and my Pharaoh, were both wrapped up together……so romantic….so lovingly…so beautiful. A sight for sore eyes. My two favorite precious peoples.

I looked at these two still dreaming things, and saw how happy they were in eachothers arm.

Anyways, turns out they weren’t actually sleeping…they just had their eyes closed. lol. It was time for them to get up anyways so they were just getting that last minute of shut eye.

blah blah blah yada yada yada, and Liz made us breakfast and we were happy :D.
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I love her smile. When she smiles, she puts heart into it. I also love it when she doesn’t smile, you know when her face is neutral.

You know, shes such a great wife.

I could look at my brother right now and say that he’s living a good life, but then I would only be fooling myself and him.

The truth is, he’s had a rough life. I think, he had most of his childhood stolen because of the cards in life that our family were given. A lot of pressure fell on his shoulders, whether he wanted to accept it or not. He chose to be a man at a young age and try to correct the errors of other peoples actions, knowing well that if he didn’t…..maybe we wouldn’t be where we are now.

There are….countless reasons why….I love Liz…and why she is so vital to me….and…making Eric happy is one of the main reasons.

This guy has sacrificed a lot for us, his family, and there is no one that can point a finger and say that he hasn’t worked hard for everything he has, and will have.

Him and Liz are young still, practically were teenagers the other day, but Eric has lived a rapid life.

So I always….always……smile…..thinking about the Love between Eric and Liz.

Liz is….almost therapeutic to him. When a man loves a woman (True love…)…..she becomes more than just a female. And so its true in this case as well.

Liz is….so multi layered in his life story. Liz is……his therapy of happiness….she is…a big part of his happiness….she is…safety to him…loyalty….a best friend…a protector…provider…confidant…

And Eric becomes the same thing to Liz.

whoo..speaking of Liz…..Don’t let that pretty smile and humbleness fool you….that woman is sharp as a needle. She’s shrewd, and intelligent.

I think this is one of the reasons why Eric found her most attractive.

In our family….the women are….either equal in power to the men….or more powerful (the matriarchs)…..Guess which one I am ;) It’s not a choice of force, but a matter of natural skills coming forth.

My brother has raised me in believing that every woman must be equal in power to every man, or greater. He….was the first one who….taught me that….genders mean little to the amount of power a person can control.

His ideology is that……the stronger his spouse and family is…the stronger he is.
He doesn’t believe in “Well I’ll work for the big money and you sit back and do nothing”….

His intelligence forces him to increase the power of everyone around him.

I brought this up because….often times when I talk about Liz I always talk about her in a moment…like her cooking breakfast, in a humble and peaceful way, but I never really mention the powerful aspect of her.

You know she’s so private and so humble that the power she wields is unknown to anyone outside the family.

Liz has come from a hard life too, and the things she has done for her mother and sister, is a testament of her drive for happiness (Like Eric).

One of the things I find so sexy about Liz is that Eric can conduct certain types of business with her, knowing that Liz can manage those aspects for Him while he is busy or doing something else. I think besides me loving the fact, I think Eric also loves the fact that Liz can handle everything that Life throws at her, and thats the most important thing. Liz has that stability that he needs.
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Speaking of Money…..the Pharaoh has a safe somewhere around the Palace. A real safe. Anyways, it inspired me to get my own safe one day….maybe for breakfast :D….I don’t know why, I just want one…cause I like the idea of keeping my money safe. :)

Another thing he has instilled in me is that money must never be kept in one location.

:)…….and this is the truth…:)
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Oh that reminds me.

The other day in Hell, I was in Pandoras Box and Lizzys Cousin (the one with the ipod) came over and we were chit chatting and one thing led to another and she started singing in my office.

And I was like…..whoa………..she can really sing :D…..

Her natural sexiness and beauty just sprung forth, more than usual.

talk about a song bird :). Her singing voice is beautiful :).

Which reminds me of something I was thinking this week. You know, about the people who enter someones life. Its amazing how much of an impact they can have, whether they stay temporarily or a long time.
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I remember recently hearing a story about a family that is in the same business, and they have a lot of problems within. They bicker with eachother.

I took a look at my family and reminded myself that………I don’t got time for all that small petty bickering.

I’m not afraid of becoming a modifier if needed, because like I always say, Life is short…..

Thankfully……I don’t have to worry abotu small petty bickering because no one fights around here. anymore….you know…ever since the Melenistic reign…*brushing shoulders*…errhmm
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Speaking of people. A lot of times, people come inside Pandoras box with a problem. Soemtimes my gravitators, sometimes other folks in Hell….etc etc….

One thing I enjoy doing is…..helping them without expecting anything. I also enjoy not being too busy to not help them. If they need help, And I’m able, then I will……Why? because God has put someone in front of me who needs help, and at that moment, most likely, I am able to do this job of Gods :).

Thats how I see it.

I don’t beat around the bush……I dont…”Maybe Later…”…..Or “Ask someone else…”

I feel like it’s a divine path for me to take, to be sefless.
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Anyways, its that time of the day where I go and see what Liz and the other ares up to and then go to sleep :)

Keep a smile on your face and love in your heart

And remember that our divinity is measured by how well we endure, not how quickly we give up ;)

Signed
Mel-ankhamun

The thoughts that never end

You know it’s amazing how some time of the day makes you feel a certain way, compared to how another time works. It’s almost like how the planets actually affect you. Everything in reality has an existence and an existent force and a purpose. It’s purpose, or divine will, must be carried out, regardless of outcome. So if it is the will of the moon to create tide differentiations, then so it is. Therefore, the result is externalities on us, other creatures and nature in general. Soo…in this case, so does the time of the day, position of the earth, planets, etc, have an effect on you. MAYBE it’s just me, but thats how I feel. Life continues no matter what, but I can feel a tiny tiny tiny difference. Mornings and late nights I get that gentle vibe, and the blessings from the sun and moon. Well you get the point.

I’m taking a nice week vacation sooo….let the fun begin :D. It’s friday night, I ate, and I’m happy and such and such.

hmmm so many thoughts. sooo many thoughts.

Why not start with my favorite Subject for a change, instead of ending my entries with my favorite subject.

So I made stuffed bitter melons today :). My dearest Pharaoh’s wife, volunteered to try my stuffed bitter melon :). The inspiration for the dish spontaneously came to my head, but you know, it came out well. I wasn’t scared that they (my other family members ate it too)…would or wouldn’t like it. They have a trust in my delicacies and know that Mel can cook very well :). And I figured if I can make them goat intestines and make them eat it and ask for more, Bitter Melons would be cake :). And so it was. What I really loved about the stuffed bitter melons was that although the outer shell had a semi-bitter taste, it wasn’t very strong, and you can taste the parched areas from the cooking, which really brought out the natural flavor. The seasoned and minced meat that was cooked in an old classic sauce, was the touch needed to give the stuffed bittermelon an excellent meaty/sweet and slightly bitter taste. I made stew chicken on the side just incase things didn’t go as I planned. But they devoured everything :D.
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There’s two rules every new yorker knows. One is that when your walking, you always walk on the right side, so the person on the opposite side can take their own right side.

the other rule is that when your in a rush (Like most true new yorkers lol)…….that above rule…gets thrown out the window ….

What happens then is similar to football practice

lmao…
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Speaking of Lizzy. I was looking at her beauty again, through my memory, while in Pandoras Box, and some of my gravitators were with me and we got into a discussion.

Whats interesting is that we are minorities. And I noticed that my dynasty has not really paid much attention to what society dictates that our particular ethnic group does. In otherwords, we as a family, have our own traditions, tastes, ways of life and running things, etc etc. But I like that because it makes me feel special that I can be  a part of such a beautiful family.

But anyways, so I was thinking about Liz and the blood she comes from. Which directly made me think about Hispanics.

Now when I say Hispanics, I’m excluding Mexicans because I don’t consider Mexicans Hispanics, because they have a class far more different than hispanics. Their history is rich in their own way, though I am unfamiliar with it. I think most people designate Hispanics as those linked to the carribean.

I just find it funny that some classes of people can be blind to their own kind. Hispanics are a mixture of 3 things….Taino Indians…..Blacks and Spaniards. Thats why there are so many skin variations of Hispanics, from really dark to really light. The blue eyed hispanics and blondes are usually those of Spaniard descent. The ones of black or dark hair (My family and Liz’s) are that of the mixed or original islander descents. The dark skinned came from the African descent. AND….they were Island Hopping with eachother….Dominicans And Puerto Ricans….

When we as human beings realize that we all bleed the same color….then we will be happy.

Speaking of which, Puerto Rico wasn’t always named Puerto Rico. It use to be Boriken. Warrior king or something. Then the Spaniards saw some shiny stuff on the shore of the island and went to the sand. when they scooped it up they saw in their hands…pure gold. Puerto Rico translates to Rich Port…and hence…Puerto Rico was dubbed by the Spaniards. And then the Island of Hispanola use to be one island and then………and then thats a whole different story that I don’t wanna get into.

But you see, it’s these preconceived notions that bring the stupidity out in humans. For example, many people stereotype Colombians as being the biggest drug exporters. The Reality is….The Emerald is the most shipped resource from Colombia.

But you know…thats why I enjoy looking at the beauty of Liz…and such….because…..you know that natural genuineness of her……allows me to see myself as a Human first.

And Like I said, one of the reasons why I love my family is because we don’t pay attention to labels. We are….a human FAMILY first. Everything else is NON EXISTENT in reality.
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Speaking of the blind…….that reminds me of America.

I dunno, is it just me and Mike or does no one else in the world not see what Palin is really up to? Or rather, what she is really being used for?

What is the most important thing in a microeconomy? Money. What is the most important thing in a macroeconomy? OIL. It might as well have been written in the bible: that who has oil shalt rule thy land. McCain realizes that the Middle Eastern Oil Barrons are Dynastic and won’t and can’t give up their fortune or reign, so he decides that he will drill oil in Alaska. Why Alaska? Because Alaska is right next to Russia and Russia is infamous for their oil. Oil veins run like tree roots, not just one place and it stops. So this is his mind frame.

So the question is….what is Sarah Palin there for? Not only will she win points for being a WOMAN….but….she is the Governor of Alaska. Does no one see this?

The Eskimos, because of their tribal and war treaty laws, can’t be touched and you can’t fudge with their land without their permission. However, Palin, being the Governor….can…influence them.

To me, Palin is a tool. But what do I know….I’m just a kid ;)

And you know what else is a shocker? There are third world countries with voting systems more sophisticated than ours. Their systems require finger prints and all your goddamn data to show up. In America? you walk to a lil table and they ask your name, No ID required and they say ok…go ahead. You click the box..and somebody…manually counts them. And….and…at the end of the day….the electoral College…has the final word.

I’m not saying this or that….I’m just showing you a different perspective of your reality.

Also lets not forget the fact that it was the Republicans in congress that REMOVED the Laws that were created to prevent another Great Depression, after the first depression. they thought things were good and we were in a great boom…and blah blah…next thing you know….this stuff is happening.
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And speaking of Changes, that reminds me of a time when Mikey went to the store and there was a homeless person on the street. He was asking for change and Mikey stopped to listen to him. The guy asked for a dollar to get something to eat. Mikey….being the intelligent person he is…decided that instead of giving the money…he would go and buy the soda himself. So he does….knowing damn well that he was actually buying the soda for himself….since he suspected the “dollar” was just a ploy to benefit a habit. So he shows the homeless guy the soda and the guy starts wailing and spouting his grievances with Mike for not giving him the money. So Mikey walks away laughing, with his soda in his hand.

What you learn here, is the universal truth, which is that if you give a man a piece of grilled chicken, he will be full. But if you give a man a george Forman girll….he will never go hungry.

The money we allocate to funds and charities, couldve been placed within constructive means of the betterment of the world, group or an individual.

This applies to all aspects of life….including education. Not everyone is a book worm. Not everyone is hands on. However, everyone has atleast one divine gift that helps them unique compared to another.
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*Yawns* you know what, i think imma end this here and continue in the morning.

I’ve had a long day, and I havent had a nap.

Ive had fun today, and I’m exhausted so……till my rebirth in the morning :).
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*Holding Tummy*

Oh I overate again. Had too much fun. Now I feel like taking another nap :).

anyways, where was I from yesterday…

I was thinking about the word appreciate. And how to appreciate the day. In investing, to appreciate something means that the value has gone up. Typically, when we appreciate a day, we just think about someone acknowledging it, but I think…to truly appreciate a day, you’d have to live it to the fullest. When something appreciates, it becomes more than whats expected. To appreciate a day, you’ll have to have tons and tons of fun…but there is no other way to appreciate LIFE :).

and in the appreciation of beauty, I had worn some nice clothing on Friday :). Made me feel quite special. And the specialness radiated towards my entire day. To be honest, the clothes weren’t like extravagant but I specifically had bought them, knowing that although they seemed casual, I could still make it seem more than average on me. And so I did :)

Speaking of which….

One of my gravitators had a ….food crisis……sorta speaking. So anyways, since it was just me and her in pandoras box, she…took her…shirt off…..and switched it inside out lol. You know since I was a trusted kid and stuff, it was all cool. Yes, she had undergarments.

But the reason this surprised me the most is because I saw some tattoos on her. She had two, one towards her kidney area and one towards her chest area. Both are small and hardly visible. But it was amazing (not just because she looks good)…because…..I wouldn’t guess someone like her to have tattoos. When we associate humans with tattoos, it’s always for every reason besides personal choice. For example, they are either rebellious, thugs, etc etc. Personally also, I don’t like tattoos on my women because I have a problem with anything that messes up natural beauty. But you know, I just found it interesting.

And you know, it really made me think about women and the types of clothing they wear. I remembered the time when Liz was inside the palace in her Bikini (before she went to the beach with Ms. 19 and them)…..I remember….feeling happy…..knowing that she was there….and I felt this safe feeling. You know, sometimes….you see a woman wear something questionable, and we quickly assume certain things. BUT….the most important thing is….the CONTEXT in which certain things are done or worn. For example, Liz wore that Bikini in two places……in her home….and on the beach. If she was to wear something that revealing in the middle of the street….for no proper reason…..THEN I’d have a problem with…her. But like I said, it’s all in the context and that’s why its not always that good to jump to conclusions.

There is nothing more beautiful than when a woman respects herself. In my opinion. Because, thats when all her natural genuine beauties come out.

lol…which reminds me…..the other day I was walking through NYC and this woman had a shirt that said “Princess” on her chest. The first thing that came to mind was “I guess she never considered upgrading to a Queen”……..which reminds me…I can’t stand women who have writing on their behind on their pants lol. Draws too much attention. I never wanted to be a princess…….I can’t lie….I always went straight for Pharaoh…..which I believe…is higher than a queen. or King.
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You know what, I think imma end it here….I have more to say but…..maybe later. I’ll call it a wrap here :D.

Signed
Mel

The Queen’s Birthweek PT 2

*Turning down music*….mhm.

Beautiful morning :). Problem though? I….for once….woke up late. Lol. So guess who didnt go to work. But guess who always anticipates these events :D. So its no big deal. Anyways…. I think I overslept because last night I was exercising and such and such. And you know after you exert your body in physical activities, you usually sleep better because your body has no reason not to rest. I cannot tell a lie, I did feel quite comfty this morning.

So, Lehman Brothers Bankrupt….AIG bailed for a 80 percent stake…Meryl Lynch Absorbed, and Morgan Stanley and Goldman Sachs fighting for their lives. Don’t know what I mean yet? well the week isn’t over, so eventually you’ll know. This seems more like a NYC thing, but eventually it’ll rock the nation, if it hasn’t done so already. Let this be a lesson to the future; Greed is bad. I know a person who works for one of those firms. I wonder whats gonna happen.

Ah well…..the good news is, everything is fine in Mella Land :D.
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I intended to write about how beautiful Liz is (as if I never had done this before…)….but how can I not write about her.

During her birth-day……we flashed pictures. Well…We…meaning…Ms.19. And so she showed us some of them today and I was wow-i-fied.

A freeze…of one of the most beautifulest creatures that god has ever put on earth. The picture was nothing compared to actually having Liz infront of me.

That day she didnt do anything with her hair. She just tied it to the back. Her hair was, like long silky shiny soft dark black hair.

and of course, that smile and the personality and stuff.

*nods* uh huh. Indeed. Human art is the one I love the most. One of the things that makes me most appreciative of Liz’s beauty is the finer details to her.

The genius Architect, was really artistic.

See…you have to be really really observative to appreciate this fully.

for example, the distance of her head from her body. The seemingly perfect way her chest doesn’t overpower her body, but still proclaims her femininity. Her thin waist, adds an extra illusion to the perfect width (not really depth) of her hips. And the way her skin chameleons between different lights from dark to more lighter skin, shows her flexibility to light, and can still remain beautiful. And of course, theres no such thing as Liz….smiling. It’s either her face is neutral, or she has a huge teethy smile. IF she smiles, she smiles quickly, since her smiles become teethy. And the Contrappostic way she often stands and shifts her weight around. The subtle decorations she puts on. And did I mention her happy eyes?

What im truly trying to say is….the more wiser I grow….the more I start seeing human art, more clearly.

My type of art isn’t based on todays standards of beauty. My type of art…..is art…..in it’s most naturalist and purest of ways. The Art of the Genuine Self.
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But something even more artistic than the actual observational distance of an observer, is the ability to be closer to this art. If anything, I reckon the Pharaoh would be the closest to this divinity, but….I’ve felt her hair before…and boy is it…healthy. And the most important thing is her heart. This is the true mark of the artist and genius architect. Its one thing to feel the texture and softness of her hair…..but feeling her heart is like heaven.

And the digger I deep, the clearer it becomes. The external radiance of her beauty stems from the internal glow of her heart (her true genuine self, or spirit).

THAT….is beauty.
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But yeah. So her birthday was nice and stuff. Like I explained before of course, but im just saying lol.

We had a beautiful time.

Lots of food….

Oh and the other night, Lizzy called me over to watch some Ylu Brynner movies with her :). She knows Im an old school fan :D….so we had a nice night, just me and her, watching Yul Brynner movies.

The King and I is a great movie. It’s another example of Brynners’ ability to play strong roles.
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And My Nikki.

What can I say about my Nikki.

I’m very delighted to have her in my heart. Shes a good sister…and person.

I love who she has become. Shes herself. She doesnt do things for anyone but herself. She laughs….for herself. There is little or no…sense of…nonsense in her mind.

This unique, individuality, and the certain things she does, like the way she speaks and the way she does this and that or how she walks, and the way she does her hair…etc etc……these things are sooo attractive to me.

I think its so ridiculous when a human can claim that everyother human is the same.
Watching humans from an artistic point of view, I know that….this is not so.
We all have these unique blessings that differentiate us.

I love spending time with her too.
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Lol…..which reminded me of a time when I mentally screamnt “Who Made her?!?!”…..whence thinking about the Divinity…that is Liz.

Everytime I ask myself that I think about Liz’s mom and I can see the features and how it was passed down.

Its amazing how much we look like our parent(s)…sometimes.

I think thats gods way of warning us……not to feel hate for someone who made you.
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900 words….thats it?…..I could really end this here, but it would be akward. It’s shorter than usual.

Oh well, there is always another day :).

It served its purpose anyways, to focus on the personality and divinity that is…Liz. And to explain how much fun Liz had for her birthday. Knowing that she had a grand time, makes me feel good because she does much for us. Her being Happy, is Mel being happy :).

Oh and since I got the day off, I think imma go take a few minutes to relax on the terrace/roofdeck/thingy….and then eat some MORE breakfast……and nap…and wake up and family…and sleep again :)

Thats my days plan and im sticking to it :)

Bread…..and…..butter…….

Stay true, stay blue(you know..blue…divinity)….stay you
Love and Smile
Signed
The Great Melzini

The Queen’s Birth Week

I think…the saddest part of today is…the way they brought it up. I think the problem is..that they brought it up. It’s becoming glorified almost. I don’t see how “Remembering” with the sad music and the video clips and the sad vibe is going to help anyone move on. But I think it’s odd because a few years ago I wouldve been hiding in my room. As intelligent as I was, I hadnt YET grasped the concept of “The man is the mind”.

Years later, today, I walked through NYC (sent on a short errand again)…and everyone was busy walking, kids were talking, people were rushing, some were walking, skies blue, weathers alright. Things is good.

In the House of Meleus, today is just another day :)
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This week has been interesting. Ironically, like Wanda, My family has alot of virgos too. I dunno why, but…virgos seem to be the cool thing now lol. I guess. A few favorites of mine. And of course, one in particular. More on her later.

Ive been enjoying life….and you know….exercising…sports…family…blah blah.

The other day while exploring I saw this kid, probably around 12 maybe, and he reminded me so much of little Mikey. The way he walked in that funny kid-ish way was similar to how Mikey walked. Mikey was this really cool, weird little boy who loved sports. Majority of the time he was running around with a vest on or no shirt. Probably because he was always playing something that involves him getting messy. Cutest and handsomest thing you ever did see. And such a little smooth talker for his age. He was smart (all this is about Mikey, not the 12 year old…)….and as I’m recalling our time together, you can trace his intelligence and wisdom back to those days. His mind is great, but his personality is divine. He’s….Mikey.

He was always like a hero, but not always the hero. He was a prideful manly little kid. Had his playful smile… A cunning little thing too. You might think he’s just playing sports and all into the game but hes always calculating something in his brain. And of course….he could play sports really well.

Much hasn’t changed, but these days Mikey is more…grounded, sorta speaking. But still, he still has those wonderful qualities that I remember.

and It’s funny, when I saw this little kid running around…..I had to actually stop for a second and shrewdly sneak an observational look at the 12 year old. So much parallel-ness.

I’ve always found natural and human art the most special. I guess thats why when I went to the Museum during the summer with Mike, WE didn’t find THAT type of painted art too special. Sometimes I joke about women and “moving art”……but, I think in some subjects (humans)….there is a type of art that can be found in their…naturalness.

Uhhh I think Alexander the Great wouldve understood the type of Art Im speaking of because he promoted the hellenistic art. Hellenistic art is lik sculptures that have Emotions in them. For instance, sculptures of disk throwers or people in nature or fighting or some type of dynamicism.

You know love Liz so much. So so much. I’ve tried to find a fault, so she wouldn’t be as divine as she is in my world, but those faults just deify her even more. Her postures, her stances, her modes of relaxation. The way she walks, the amount of movement, her gestures….etc….etc…etc…………these things…..to me….is art. Liz, to me, is art. And Mikey. And people that I admire. Myself included.

I think there is beauty, a genius beauty, a mysteriously created beauty in humans and I’ve felt that beautiful divinity in Liz and them. And most personally, I’ve found it in myself.
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Going back to Mikeys austere discipline. As Ive probably mentioned before, one of Mikeys new thing that he does is review his day quickly in his head at the end and think about all the negative things he did, or the things he felt he couldve had more control in, etc, and then figure out ways he could rectify the problem.

After a very wonderful brunch with Liz and the Cousin with the Ipod, (Yeah, even when she replaces her ipod or throws it away, she’ll still be the cousin with the ipod lmao)…..I’ve adapted another a new concept.

I think…..a good concept is to always ask yourself….”Why did this happen?”….

I dunno, it makes sense to me.

Basically its just trying to be optimistic about everything.

You know, because, I havent lived a peachy life, yet, but sometimes when I meditate on life, I always smile when everything starts unraveling in my head. Everything seems to be more clearer. I often feel that there IS indeed a divine pen and paper writing my life story and so this life is a destined thing and my actions are destined. This destiny alliows me to review my life and smile because I know EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. So trying to find an answer to solve gods divine actions, pleases me :)
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And speaking of Mikey. Remember how he wanted to spoil me and such….

You know, if your so lucky as to have a Mikey…..then you’d know that when Mikey is set on fire….it’s unwise to try to put his flame out. When Mikeys in the moment, thats when hes at his most potent.

When he is spontaneous, he is at his most romantic time. His actions are melting.

His love is very sincere and very real. He understands that….time is limited and I think thats why he doesnt let time slip.

So….we’ve been having much fun lately. Even though the “season” started again, we still force our love life.

ugh. Love life. Who came up with that phrase anyways. It sounds so dirty. …..love…life.
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So yeah, Lizzys birthday was last week. among others. But for Lizzy we actually held a semi-surprise party for her.

You see, the plan was, for her to walk in and ACT surprised :). This way, it would be kinda like a surprise party, but she knew it was gonna happen…but it was….ok well you get the point. With all these people running in and out of my apartment, theres no way anyone would ever have a “surprise” party anyways, so thats why she had to act surprised :D.

Anyways, so the morning was really really fun.

Me and her was cooking for her surprise party. We cooked tons of food and you know how much I love cooking with her, among just spending time in general.

Aunty brought me another giant 4-5 foot squash again and some Really really organic looking giant potatoes. These potatoes still had the roots popping out of them, and were practically 3 times bigger than an “idaho” potato. Talk about natural. So we whipped something up with that stuff too.

Later on we all huddled up and Liz “acted” surprised and everyone was there and then we all jumped on her literally and stuff like that :). Good times….good times.

Of course Lizs Mommy and Ms. 19 came upstairs for the semi-surprise party.

To be honest…it wasnt really a party.

Maybe its a virgo thing, or it could be a Liz thing but…..She’s really a family orientated person who really doesn’t do all that wild partying and drinking stuff. She prefers more subtle things. She likes the kinda parties that Mel likes…you know….eating talking and drinking and laughing and stuff….traditional ways.

So thats basically what we did. In actuality it was a “get together” for our Queen.

So Liz turned “20 something”…..again…..lol.

Actually Liz is pretty young. She IS actually 20 something.

Anyways, i guess…the most specialist part of the day…………was that…….of course it was family orientated…..but more importantly…..we were devoting special attention to someone who has freely given her heart to us. To say that she HASNT made a difference in my life as well as the others, would be a complete and utter….tragedy. A shame. She has done so much for us. Her modesty is what forces us to honor more.

So we drank and ate and celebrated the 20 something birth of a divine creature who has made astronomical impacts on our world. :).

Oh and we bequeathed her with presents :D. I personally made sure she was extra comfortable and happy on her day :).

Liz actually finished the night with us. Beforehand, after we had cooked, she and Pharaoh had spent their personal time together and his expressiveness was given in their own private way. And THEN the partyism-ness happened.

Nice sounds, good food, loved ones…..surely this is what heaven must be like :)
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So anyways, I think I said enough.

Imma go get some rest and stuff like that. You know…what normal folk does. Things like…sleep. Lol

I hope tomorrow is sunny

But for now, It’s time to retire, and await my rebirth into the world in the morning.

I reckon yall is all alright :)….remember to smile and love, if not externally, then most importantly internally.

Signed
That who will oneday be “20 something” too.

Success is in the individual not the public

Slept in extra, had my breakfast and listened to some music and now I got time to…do stuff. Almost once a week I make this thing I call “Bread thing”. It’s kinda like bread but its not really bread, but it tastes like bread, but its not bread. Point is, I make about a huge pots worth and usually Mikey ends up devouring it.

So lets talk. I got a lot to say today.

I have officially dedicated almost all of my money into the Palace. Of course being the shrewd thing that I am, I do have money when “sh*t hits the fan” sorta speakin, so I know what I’m doing. The quicker I own the Palace, the safer my financial future will be.

I guess everyone has their own take on what “Success” is….but as I was observing my family members and those who have become “successful”…I have realized that true success indeed is Making your money work for you, not the other way around. It’s actually a fancy saying but, when taken LITERALLY it becomes clearer. Having your money work for you is whats known as passive income and I think thats the true success. You know how a few days ago I was like “You know what a perfect life would be like for me? I’d wake up, eat breakfast, play with my family, sleep and wake up and do it all over again”…..sounds good right? Nothing is perfect but to ME thats what success is. Success is…reaping the benefits of your hard work and allowing yourself to be free from the strings that binds us and withers us away.

My plan is to retire from Hell around….20 something. What does retirement mean? It means Ill be my own boss. It doesn’t mean that I’ll stop working at Hell but it means ill be able to come and go as I please. Along those lines I shouldve acquired the Palace.

Ultimately I plan to create a passive income and retire about 40ish…… Which will leave the remainder of my life to traveling, exploring and eating :). Building…creating….and…more family members…:)

But of course, these ittle fancy plans of mine…are just that. Dreams and aspirations, thoughts and plans. But one must not think, he must do. One must not believe, he must become. Therefore what is said, is predestined to be done….so lets focus on the PRESENT :)

BTW real estate in New York City is not a bad investment. Come to think of it, Real estate anywhere is not THAT bad of an investment. Usually its about 90 percent safe. It constantly appreciates because the 300 Million Americans are only on the grow. For example take NYC for example. Dont you like how I phrased that? I used Example twice and still made it sound correct? Anyways….NYC has about 1 million real properties and about 8 million people. Lets say half rents. Lets say half own homes. Its still 1 to 4 which is not really accurate because reality would be 1 to 6ish. Plus you have outta-towners and tourists…So the appreciation of Real Estate in a big market like New York is less than likely to plummet. In fact during the great depression, Real Estate was one of the main factors of “success” and sustainability.

But since we’re talking so much about Success…..you know what I also realized? Success has very little to do with a position. We have these false preconceived notions that being a Doctor or Lawyer or some trade that requires 100 years of school…is what brings success. The TRUTH of the matter is that, while these trades pay good, they don’t deliver success. Success is a thing possible only to those who see within.

What do I truly believe? I truly believe there are 3 types of knowledge. The Inner knowledge or self realization, followed second in line in rank by The School of the hardknocks(otherwise known as your surroundings)….and FINALLY and LASTLY….is the knowledge of resources. Why did I rank it in that order? Because without all 3 or if a factor is missing then true knowledge hasn’t been achieved. You can live without the other two if you obtain self knowledge, and thats why self knowledge is the most important one. What this translates to is……..using the knowledge within….using the knowledge of your surroundings…and using the knowledge of RESOURCES. Combining these three can help create a titan amongst men.

And when I look back at the history of the men in my family, one of the most important factors that have driven them to forcing themselves to be successful is in the essence of selfless work. Selfless work forces us to work, not only for ourselves, but the betterment of someone else, all while becoming self realized and working within your true comfort zone. Because one of the things ive come to realize in my apartment lately is that I don’t use half of the things in here. I sleep, play with family, work, play with family, come home, eat and play with my family. They were driven to success because they had to work for somebody else. Our Current and most beloved Pharaoh, had to work for an entire family because of the cards he was placed with. Similar with my grandfather and everyone else.

This doesnt mean that you have to work for someone else, it just means that you work and realize what you truly profit and what true wealth is and stuff like that. It means that you become intune with what money is. It’s the same thing with Mikey….who uses his money in a frugal way because he’s always thinking of the future of those he cares about, even those who aren’t born yet. A lesson from the past is a lesson still to be treasured.
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Which reminds me. I have one final ascension to wait for. It’s the one I was hoping for a few months ago but the powers that be felt it was best that I intook some more experience.

anyways, which also reminds me…me and Mikey dont eat cereal with milk. We have this cereal jar and when we need a quick snack we just shove our hands down the jar and pull out some cereal and eat it :D
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Last week me and the family went to the Gym room and we had a blast playing all kindsa sports. All week my body was in pain from all the running around and exhersion. But its pain well accepted :).

And then I had to go to work but thankfully I dont work as much as I usually did in the years before and thankfully I didnt had to get up much on those particular days.
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I wanna Mac computer. Not NOW necessarily but one day. I just wanna experience one and internalize it. I feel that that would increase my wisdom :)

yes.

Yes indeed.

one day.
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Yesterday was seriously hot. But I mean…thats what I love about the City…it’s the most randomess weather ever.

Which reminds me though. I know it doesn’t matter what title or position my family puts on their name (you know the future generations I mean)……but it wouldnt hurt to have some *grins* nice titles to it. You know….I might have to call on them for some services :)…..talk about convenience. But of course whatever wind they allow themselves to get swayed in…is their business.
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Hold that thought, I need a post-breakfast snack—
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so anyways. the other day I was thikning about how animalistic we really are :). I reckon the only thing that makes us “Humans” is the fact that we can kill or not kill depending on the mood. Animals kill…because they have to. They work like a natural flow of life, but Humans become dillusioned to the fact that we are still part of this same planet. Evidence of this is….really all the things that we create that aren’t natural. For example, transfat which is human made.

But the reason I was thinking about this was the other day when Mikey placed his head next to my neck. Just like two sleepy lions. Our natural actions as humans are no different than any creature. Well…in some aspects.

Speaking of lions. They sleep alot. I think they sleep most of the day, but then again its not like they have anything to do. Talk about the kings of the jungle. I mean, whos gonna be brave enough to mess with a sleeping lion…..except humans.

In a way, we are almost half human. Half animal and half human. Kinda like why some of us can swim like fishes, think like foxes, have pride like wolves and lazy like a cat. To each their own divinity, which is only found within.
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Which reminds me. I was watching TV and some white lady was on tv and she was some fashion expert or something and she was criticizing other peoples clothing on TV. She mightve been acting but so…lets focus on the character.

So I’m thinking in my mind “Who are YOU miss thing to tell someone what to wear or not to wear or whats in style or whats not in fashion” Aint got nothing good to say then keep your mouth shut.

Fashion negates individuality.
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Someone thanked me at Hell for being helpful to them :). It made me feel special. So I told her with a big smile “Thats just what I do :)”…………Yup…..:)…..thats just what I do.

Like I said before, it’s not only about working, its about enjoying life too,

And thats why I like to be more familiar with them and being friendly with them, it makes life easier.
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You know…..being female is not easy. Respect and disrespect is something that can be a big issue.

I was just thinking….that indeed…women do have it a tad bit harder. It’s seems like a problem when your trying to find your individual beauty and trying to outwardly express it…..but then you have to run into other peoples opinions. Sometimes stares and calls and compliments and all kinda stuffs.

One thing I realized is that…is just….who females are. Many of them were destined to be flowers in concrete, and so its hard NOT to notice them and such.

So I think its important for little women to learn….that thats just a normal part of destiny and that instead of not embracing it, you SHOULD embrace it. I think being yourself is the most sexiest thing ever and unfortunately the external world interferes with the internal world of many women. And some men.

Somebody needs to tell them that its OKAY….to be beautiful….

But THEE MOST important thing for any human to remember is that…….without respect for the self and of others, beauty just becomes a tainted image of lust.

Some of the most…..or actually…….all of the women that I’ve found beautiful and sexy were the women who were themselves and who had the utmost respect and love for themselves, mentally and physically.

So yeah, Ive been doing the whole personal power thing. Your never too old  for personal power :D.

Beautified myself all this week with all kindsa stuff. Nothing too extravagant because you know…subtle beauty is the thing for me…..but you know….enought to make me feel good.

I also used some of Mommys curling thing. You put some in your hair and it curls up your hair and gives that whole wet look. You know…It’s Mikeys favorite.

Which reminds me. His mommy usually likes her hair in curls. She has nice hair.

Anyways. Plus the curly thing smelled good so thats a plus.

The thing that turns Mikey on the most is my intelligence :D.

Which reminds me of those warm spring days, exercising our intelligence with some task at hand, and how we’d share ideas and I’d supposedly fascinate him with my thoughts and he’d tell me his and we’d have laughs and fun while still getting everything done. Good times :). I oughta do something like this today with him.
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And of course…….My Liz and My Eric. Mornings with them….

Finding more things about their love. Finding more things about their past together. Their future. Their present.

What can I say….

I just love their love.
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And the other day I was in Pandoras Box and Ms. 19 comes to visit and she brings in a box of Calimari and fries or something.

Mikey and Lizzys cousin was there too. Lizzy actually has several cousins, maybe I should give them names instead of saying “(You know the one with the ipod)”….but it sounds cooler when I say it that way :).

So anyways, So she eats the Calimari and yada yada yada fast forward, Mike comes in and takes a piece of the Calimari….after being warned…..and we all had a laugh after he says “It tastes like chicken”.

So then we had to find out how or where the hell she even considered eating Squid.

She said it was her second time “trying” it. The first she did it for the hell of it.
She said its not really her thing but she tried it again since she found a place that sells it and such.

So you know…..since everyone “tried” it and no one screamed for help or fainted….I was gonna try it too :)

All I’m saying is that….Fried Calimari……is just like Fried Shrimps. A tad bit chewier but nothing like…you know….too..potent. You know how some foods are really strong? this really has a subtlely about it. You oughta try it.

tofu on the other hand, ill never give another try :)
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Sooo many birthdays coming up. So many family members….. These two weeks are jam packed with Virgos.

Gotta love them virgos. Very smart and sexy people, very private too, very family orientated.

So anyways, I got a secret birthday to plan for a certian beloved and adored queen goddess person thingy……

How shallt I celebrate thee…..and such and such…..

ahhhh I goottsss time.

Im home today, so imma go rest, Imma go do stuff and spend a ton of time with my Family.

In conclusion, I’ve found true success in my family and within.

Signed
That who is finite on the outside but infinite in the in-side

The result of a fun night

*Yawns* I’m sleepy. I had a fun night last night so I didn’t really get to get enough sleep so ill have to catch up in a few minutes. But anyways, things are good at Hell.

Yesterday I also was plundering a certain family members fridge where I just so happened to come across Cherry Vanilla ice cream :) And yes…let me tell you…it is indeed….the good stuff. I’m not a fan of strawberry ice cream but cherry seems to be something I dont mind. Cherry and every other flavor other than “vanilla” usually has more calories, so these types of sweets have to be eaten with caution. Vanilla alone can be eaten in indulgence but when you got the fancy types, they are always really saturated, obviously. But Cherry Vanilla does get a Pass in my world :)

My time at Hell was interesting today.
Being in there reminded me of the position I was in, how I got there and all the hard work it took to create a comfortable nest. I truly am doing something I enjoy doing, even if it got its problems once in a while, but I’m doing something that I enjoy and that I’m good at.

Big leagues now. More fun, more responsibilities.

Speaking of financial nests, I also started on more plans on my investment into the “Palace” which I plan on taking over one day.

Anyways.

Nothing beats a beautiful sunny morning on this island. I had a special time in Pandoras Box, reorganizing things and …you know…you get what I mean.

As usual, my gravitators gravitated towards Pandoras Box….and being as I enjoy their company, I let them stay and keep me company.

I do enjoy being friendly….or uh……being….you know…..like…..making people feel comfortable. I dont want this all to be about business, thats not how I do things. You know, people who enter my life in one way or another, I want it to be meaningful…..so I dont mind if they come into Pandoras Box and stuff.

You know I like to discuss things with them. Their families, relationships, etc etc…etc. It makes me feel closer to them.

I dont just…..make it into history books….I author them :)

But yeah, they know thats not how I do things too. They know that I enjoy the friendliness to allow the time to fly by.

So yeah anyways, it was really nice being back and feeling those vibes and the energy from the setting and weather and everything that brings that feeling.

One of my gravitators was chatting with me and she confided to me that someone was talking about how she always seems to be too…..too…..active. She has a personality where she wears her heart on her sleeve and she really puts her all into everything. So some person she knows was explaining their disdain to her. I had to be honest as always and told her that…..hey….you know what………It’s because she wears her heart on her sleeve is exactly why I fell in love with her. I like that personality in her because its unique. It’s not generic. It’s very unique and custom and really shiny. Shes a good person and her personality is good and I advised her not to pay mind to external forces, because afterall…they are….external.

You know what? You know how you find the “Genuine Self”?…..The Genuine Self is found when no one is around. For example….singing in the shower….doing certain things at home…reading a book…etc….these are the things you privately do because subconsciously you can be FREE. To find your genuine self, its best to free yourself from the external world. Thats why meditation can be helpful by isolating your thoughts inwards.

I love the fact that she is who she is. She is tasting the traits of her genuine self.
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I gave Lizzys Cousin (the one who had the ipod touch)……a ring and told her to come play with me in Pandoras Box :).

She is really a very fine woman. She’s in her 20s and its interesting to just….even….think about how young humans are. I look at 20s and 30s as if they are between child and adult. Because when I look at her cousin, she has a gorgeous appearance, and alot of wow-ish-ness….but when you look closely, she still has a lot of youth in her. Mentally and Physically. I really do think society overdoes it with the whole AGE and categories thing…

But so yeah…shes a very lovely woman…and also a smart one and a nice personality. And you know how much I love my smart and beautiful womens :). Internal beauty..that is.

So she spent time with me in Pandoras Box during the morning and we went out for lunch (actually i took my own lunch today but we went “out”…doors…to eat it…lol)…..

she left and now shes actually with Lizzy. We’re suppose to chillax together later.
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Speaking of women.

Walking through NYC…youll notice a lot of funny things.

I had to catch the train for one of those infamous errands of mine…which was rather quick. I dont run a lot of errands, but its always nice when I do cause I get some exploration done.

anyways, so this woman with a really nice dress was walking up the train steps and next thing you know…POW…all you hear is knee hitting the steps. She got up like a trooper and kept it moving but jeez. I wonder if it was because she wore heels. The price women pay….to look good. I felt kinda bad. I hoped she wasnt hurt…..shucks……

Oh and this other woman was walking really fast I reckon, and it just so happened……that my eyes was wandering about.

This wasn’t even “moving art” in my opinion, because I didnt really find her appearance….appealing. But like I said, my eyes were wandering about and it just so happened that this particularly short dress she was wearing was revealing a biiittt too much. I wasnt the only one who noticed. Maybe she was trying to make a statement….or maybe she didnt know…..Who knows.

The point is….I didnt find it classy. I enjoy subtle beauty and I consider that moving art…but this on the other hand…just isnt.

Which reminds me…..men are kinda funny with the whole moving art concept. When they see a fine woman walking, it doesnt matter what ethnicity they are…what race…what color…nothing doesnt matter….because theyll both turn around to stare…..theyll both smirk or smile….and theyll look at eachother…..nod and laugh…….otherwise known as the manly approval.

NYC has its way of being entertaining without the need of money
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I remember once Mike was joking and said something like….

“Money is my second wife…she never leaves me. Other guys got marriage problems…but she never leaves me. “

His funny and intelligent metaphor……..is actually a humorous ode to his strict and austere money management skills. In fact, its not a matter if his money will leave him, but its a matter that he wont ever ALLOW it to happen.

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A lot of birthdays coming up………

These two or so weeks are very interesting because a lot of birthdays for family members.

Alot of Virgos….go figure.

A certain Queens birthday as well.
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Anyways I dont know what else to say, Imma have to cut this entry short because I wanna go spend time with the famlay and go nap first.

I know its no surprise or anything new but I really love spending time with my family.

Every little detail about it makes me feel euphoric.
My mind has so many memories and I enjoy making these new ones with them.

catch ya around dudes

Signed
Mel

Reflection

So….I guess you’ve all been wondering where I’ve been. Lets cut to the chase, business first as usual.

I spent a good deal of time trying to configure my mentality to the new things and objectives I have to do, carry out, etc etc at Hell. The Hell games will recontinue in a very short time so it’s about that time where I restart the engines, sorta speakin.

But so yeah, most of my absent time has been focused on preparing for my seasonal work at Hell. I guess one of the things I really like about my new contract is the freedom and flexibility, (aside from the increased work and more RESPONSIBILITIES)… The flexibility is really nice and Ill have more time to be free, but like I said, I can’t step into the upper echelon without some responsibility. Thats the business I have chosen, that is the business I have to live with.
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Aside from Hell, most of my time has been spent sleeping, lazing around and eating :).

I took a moment to reflect on all the things that happened this summer, and especially this year in particular. This has been a memorable year for external and internal reasons. You know I didn’t get to explore everything that I wanted to explore, or did everything that I craved for, but it did help me evoke a passion for it. So instead of exploring only when I have free time, I feel comfortable enough to explore…when I feel the impulse is strong enough. I didn’t do as much exploration as I intended, but I did enough to say that I did something this summer.

Summer is a funny word though. When I think of it, in my world, every day is summer.

You know a few weeks ago, I was sitting outside infront of the Palace with some of my elders and we were discussing this and that and such and this pretty lil fire fly thing comes next to me, and in the dark it stopped flicking and disappears. I….know there are fireflies in NYC….but it’s not habitually seen, so I thought it was a spiritually special moment to have that lil thing put on a show for me and the elders. It…is welcome to put on another show any time.

Speaking of nature. The terrace/roofdeck/thingy is very spacious and so sometimes my family members like planting things. Vegetables, fruits, plants and small trees even. Personally I put a few flowers up there, aside from the real and fake ones I keep inside my apartment.

so the other day, Aunty calls me and Mike to her apartment to pick up “something”. When we get there, its a giant Squash. Both of our eyes bulged out because you never seen nothing like that in the super market.

Speaking of which, For all my New Yorkers or City folk reading this………..Mom showed me something she noticed by accident. She was peeling the skin of an apple and it just so happened to scrape against the blade of the knife. She noticed a white waxy thing coming from it. All I’m saying is….after seeing that (Try taking a knife and scraping a apple gently with it to see what I mean)….all im saying is…an apple a day might keep the doctor away but the skin itself will make you stay *blinks*

So we dragged this huge squash back up to our apartment and we chopped it into three long pieces and decided what to do with it. We cooked a piece later and dissected the rest and frozed it. I’m fond of squash…

Oh speaking of mom, she also noticed (shes  very observative these days)….that the snickers bars have egg whites in them. Like….wow…who woulda thunk.
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On a more important note, Eric held a family meeting with the heads of the family and specifically this included me in particular.

They say the most safest place to store information is in your brain. Sometimes thats not always gauranteed but for the most part it is. So he dishes out a series of important information that he felt was necessary for the sustaining of the family and such in the event something bad should befall him or another head.

I felt honored.

He felt I was at the age, and at the mental stability and wisdom enough to handle crucial material.

he felt i was indeed different and a thought provoking young person (in a positive way). I had proved my merit enough for him.

So…ill be taking some more time during this or next week or soon actually to inscribe this data inside my brain and encrypt it.

On another note, I was briefly glimpsing a special on tv about life after humans if they had disappeared. They predicted that our data and compact discs and everything we kept info on would all go to hell…..and if a new breed of humans were to reborn……the only data they would have left of humans would be things like the Egyptians had, like obelisks and pyramids and hieroglyphics, and sustainable things. Similar to how our modern day world learned about the past from those same things. Makes you wonder how powerful our world truly is. Humans are only powerful, if they are in power.

So yeah, im just honored and appreciative.
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This summer I also did a lot of spring cleaning. Yes you read that correctly. I had to catch up again on stuff.

you know besides reflecting on how I actually stepped outside of the Palace this summer (because if I hadnt, I wouldve staid inside and been happy either way)….and all the things ive seen……….Ive also taken a moment to reflect on some things from the past.

I was chillaxing with Lizzy and she came over to spend time with me (I make it sound like as if she had to walk 10 blocks, all she had to do was open the door…walk a few feet and open my door lmao)……and she knew we were spring cleaning so she helped.

We sat on the floor together romantically and went through piles and piles of hidden documents, papers and all types of tree-based-things. we sorted out the important and non important and it was so nice just to share some past memories with Liz and listen to some of her past memories as we went through different papers together.

there was a lot from my past that I enjoyed rereading, because it brought back good memories….like inconsistent childhood blabber……and there was memories that I didnt CARE about because it didnt truly bring me happiness.

to sum up this whole ordeal…..the realization that I had was that this present lifestyle….mindframe….health….etc etc etc….everything post-melenistic-wars…….is exactly what I wanted, where I wanna be, etc etc. In a way, I am indeed living a dream.

plus it was nice chucking some old stuff from my beautiful Palace :)
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Also……it did something to me……that moment of reflection….and some other events really…..inspired me to carry out another dream.

So I started my first foray into literally….owning….the Palace. I started deals with the Pharaoh…….which will allow me to own this Palace, in a time thats beneficial enough for me.

I require….a comfortable nest and safety. These were my plans since last year…..and these are my consistent plans, and because they are consistent, I can tell that they seem to be an act of divine guidance.

On the concept of money, i also think that a lot of teenagers are pressured today. I never really understood that in terms of MONEY because Kids generally like money so its not a big deal. But I think that number…”18″…is the general problem.

They come to you and say “Oh my gosh…your 18 now!!! congratulations!! you now have responsibilities”….

And the child………..the CHILD….is thinking “What??? But im not ready!!!”….

In life, one thing is certain, that everyone is truly blessed with a specific skill or gift, sometimes its easy to find like Kobe and MJ…and sometimes it takes a plethora of trial and error. Certain divine skills can often times be used for good and advancement.

Likewise, some people take longer to find their inner responsible self.

The fact that kids today are encouraged (Because thats what it is. When you tell a child “Congratulations your 21…you can now drink and go party wooohoooo”….thats just what your doing…your pushing the child into hell. Some kids, arent ready for WORK, MONEY, MARRIAGE, etc etc etc etc etc.

18 is a horrible number in society because once again……society is under the control.

Of course nescience is the true sin here.

Also on another subject, I’m really really blessed to have a Mikey. Mikey is extremely good with money. Very…frugal also at times. Which isn’t a bad thing.

Knowing the life I’ve chosen, It’s important for me to have a no-bull-type of relationship. I’m not here for little teenage games and baby mama drama. I dont NEED that. So its a blessing to have a Mikey.

What I enjoy about Mikey is his shrewdness when it comes to money.

Because of that, he doesnt have to buy me anything and I dont have to buy him anythign. We all contribute our money into savings, investments (Well I’m more inclined to the investment thing)….and such and such. Yeah we do splurge once in a while, but what I’m saying is……….it’s very pleasing to know that….you know…he’s good with money. A lot of relationships and couples have so many money related problem because either too much money isn’t being saved or too much money is being saved. There is no balance. Like an economy…..money is separate from love.
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Also on the last episode of “As the world turns, with Mel”……….I didn’t get to mention this but I guess yall already know….Mac and Hayes both went. Too people I did enjoy. But they have an immortality to them, so its like..they never left.

But speaking of music, on the last episode of my life, I brought up an artist who wasn’t known much to the public, Corinne Bailey Rae. I was listening to a few of my favorite songs of her, like Put your records on, trouble sleeping, Id like to, and just like a star. They reminded me of what was happening to the music industry. Or actually, what ALWAYS happened to the music industry.

It’s really sad that our music is being controlled by corporate nobodies.

indeed a lot of music doesnt make it back to public ears. There is a sense of namebrand trust, or name brand loyalty. Similar to artists. the 50, Jay and Mariah caries usually make it to the scene because they generate the most profits. Corporate areas are scared of taking risks and making mistakes, but its usually the entrepreneurs like Jay that taken risks in their companies and have kept it more familiar rather than corporate, that has allowed them to make more profits.

You know even when you look back at the Supremes from the old days. They all seemed happy singing on stage, but everytime I see them I feel this akward feeling as if they had some puppet strings around them somewhere. Everything from their hair style and dresses and expressions on their faces seem to be  a product made to be sold in society. It was as if they were being used to generate more profits for the companies they worked for. I could be wrong, but the world has a lot of historical records showing how Managers take advantage of people. Sometimes the bosses are as sweet as pie…or the Ruler..kings…etc…..but the Subordinates are always corrupted in some way or another.

Branch out your taste in music folks…..

The Roots can throw down some drums too. Quest love is great with the instrumentals. Like I said though, theres a lot of music that dont get marketed.
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You know as the city is cooling down, I cant help but reflect on those really beautiful feelings that I have sometimes. Specifically when there arent much people around NYC. I love those moments, especially with my family, just walking by the river,

Dang which reminds me I didnt get to go to the beach this summer, but ill go one day

Just walking by the river, and just feeling these different naturalistic feelings. they are very romantic.

Sometimes at Hell, during my lunch break, Id take one of my gravitators with me for a nice day time or early morning walk around town….(You know…If I dont order them to get my food…since they cant be gravitating in pandoras box for free…lol)…..

As you can see…..a good peaceful paradise-ical moment for me….is…..being in a place with a naturalistic feeling and with someone I enjoy being with. And that is the ultimate combo for me. In reminisces of last years vacation, expensive or extravagance is not required as long as I have what I love.

So I cant wait to be back at Hell and make some NEW memories.
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At Hell I was also reopening Pandoras Box and some of my gravitators came in to greet and meet and rekindle our old nonsensical ways.

After the meeting, those who stayed got to spend time with me as I reorganized some things there and being the little curious person I am, I had to inquire about what was going on.

Yada  yada yada yada fast forward…so one of them tells me that she has bill problems. My eyes just bug out….because I was doing the mental mathematics in my brain as she was talking.

The most eye popping part was the comparison that I made with Her money compared to my annual money.

Im not talking about incomes…..im talking about what is used and what is saved.

When I did the math….(Mikey Does the math too…..he has his and our yearly income down like a science with percentages and all kindsa figures, which is another thing you gotta love about him….that boy dont play with his money)…..

When I did the math…….I evaluated….that she spends…..more than 60 percent of her money.
Me and Mikey respectively Save 75% of our money….
Big difference eh?

So as my attention grew stronger, I sat down with her and tried to dissect the problem. The problem was clear, which was that her necessities and desires were all fudged up. Shes confusing them together, causing this problem. shes a grown girl but she needs to learn discipline, especially with her money.

That boy is strict with every piece of his money. Dont get me wrong, he does enjoy it too, but he knows when to stop. Similar tactics that I also use.

So you know….it was interesting to see all the bills and the nonsensical things that was eating up all her money. She needs to rework her life. Its the truth. Needs and Wants is an important and fundamental concept in economics and business.
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Speaking of 18 years old…..and laws…..

if theres one thing evident about this family is that this family doesnt work according to the laws of the land….it works according to the laws of the generations. It doesnt matter what the drinking or smoking or driving age is or any other law………..dont bring that nonsense….in my house….and that is a golden rule.

Your in Pharaohs house, and you live by Pharaohs rules and Laws
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And then in the news they were ranting about how Berlin is the new IT town. Where all the money is…and how NYC is falling off its grind.

But…..who cares? Lol.

Me and Mikey was joking about that.

We Make legends of all kinds. Michael Jordan…Tupac….Jay…..almost every “hip hop king”…..we make entrepreneurs…and Mogols…and all kindsa people.

We Make shrewd, beastly, strong women and men and children. We are hardened like warriors and creative and intellectual.

No one says….”Dude I cant WAIT to go to Berlin”………they say….”Dude…I Cant Wait to go to New York CITY!!”

All I’m saying is, the media shouldnt try to knock the infamy of NYC and its 5 boroughs.
America doesn’t command us.
We Command America.
America Follows our lead. (For instance, NYSE)

Nomatter how much or little money NYC has…..we are still……..New york City.

I’m not saying Berlin is bad….but who in America can afford that right now?….I’d love to visit Berlin one day but its still not NYC.

Thats like Saying……….Wisconsin is more cooler than….Vegas. No matter how much or little Vegas has…its still the flashiest place ever.
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One thing ive learnt about almost all the men in this family, from the past and present is that when it comes to the home….they love nice things in their home. They have more of a fashion sense than the women do. They have always been the architects and the designers.

but of course its the women who smooth out the edges.

I also noticed that we dont like too fancy things. you know how sofas today are weird? And tables and all kindsa stuff? Everything is so new age now. Me and my family try to keep a very rustic wood look inside, but very clean and classy and old-days-ish.  I like that safe and memorable feeling it gives.
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You ever met someone who has to find a reason to be upset? Like everything they do…they just…always find something to be upset about. Never at peace, never at rest. These people have difficult times finding peace.
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So yeah the whole spring cleaning thing was enjoyable with Liz. Of course, Time with Liz is always fun.

Mikey had walked into the room and looked me happily in the eye and declared “I’m going to spoil you”…..kissed me passionately and walked out.

Sometimes, because we enjoy being so frugal and spiritual, sometimes I don’t give him a lot of incentives for him to decorate me. But when Mikey says spoil he doesnt necessarily mean with jewelry….he means…..with every creative way or any thought possible.

As you can see, my relationship with him is good and this summer, rekindling some childhood-ness was enjoyable :)

I was also spending time with Eric and discussing his memories of Liz when they were in high school together. I always enjoy listening to his memories, whether its about Liz or anything. Makes me closer to him. so that was fun, listening to what he remembers, the details and the emotions along with him, her, and everything.

Tonight also, I suggested that they both should go out and have some fun together.

So they got dressed, Liz in her hotness, Eric in his handsomeness and wore their favorite personality:Happy….and they hit the town.

That makes me feel good, knowing that they are feeling good too.

Theyve been painting the town a lot this summer, but I’m happy because you know, they do deserve some of that happy time.

Things are good with them.

I think also that  we here in the Palace are old enough to hold down the fort, so they can play everyday :)
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Lastly, this summer I also got to explore my personality beauty a little bit more.

On the other hand, I also explored my external beauty as well.

Me and Liz and her cousin and Nikki were on the floor (helping me sort things out again)….and someone commented that imma get my cothes dirty from sorting through all those stuffs. So then I commented that I didnt mind.

Liz exclaimed that Mel always shows so much love to them and so much dedication and she thought this was a moment to show some of their love to Mel.

So….basically….I got poofed up.

I got to try on different clothing that they had to figure out styles and feel different clothing and such.

It’s funny cause Mom came over and we all laughed because I said “How is it that my mom is more fly than I am”…..

Don’t get me wrong…I like nice clothing too….but since Hell ended and I gave away most of last years clothing to people who needed it……and since I practiced spiritualism a little bit more potently (because its one thing to know it, but to practice is the essence)….and all these other factors…..I just didnt have time or passion enough to buy new clothing.

Me and Mikey dont really care about name brands and I like Liz’s choice of clothing a lot. She wears, what looks good on her and what makes her feel that beauty or sexiness depending on the day, regardless of namebrands.

my mom has more clothing than I do though…..

Youd think for a normal teenager it would be the other way around….

But of course we all know im not a normal teenager :).

But I did go shopping…..and I took my favorite person Mikey with me. as ive mentioned a long time ago, i love how he is intune with me and everything about me, so he does have a say in it.

I do appreciate his suggestions, comments and recommendations.

Plus he knows im anti-hoe-ish….and….im all about personal power, strength, respect and classiness….so he knows not to goof around and play with my personality.

We brought home a lot of bags…but im not mad at that because……like I mentioned before….my money management is very keen.

Not that I ever doubted his maturity or respect (because hes always been mature and respectful all his life)…..but I also took him along to OTHER departments (pants, shirts..etc) as well. I thought he should have a say in that as well.

shoes he doesnt have a say in lol…because….i only buy one type of shoes. I mean sneakers. But shoes and sneakers are the same thing in my head so it dont matter :)

Besides casual clothing, we bought a nice dress and a few other pieces of clothing more on the sexy side…..that I could express my external beauty on certain shindigs…occasions…or just when we plan on painting the town.

One of my favorite casual pieces that I bought is a pretty little flutter sleeve top that I absolutely loved. I bought it because I had one when I was a tiny person in a tinier size and it made me feel special.

So I bought a lot of clothing that fits my personality. Some….on the casual side for work and home and play…..some more sexy-casual….and sexy.

Knowing damn well that I’d be wearing casual clothing most of all….majority of the time….I bought pieces that made me say “That is beautiful”…..because it radiated a sense of beauty in it. Specifically the beauty was me imagining how I’d feel if I wore it. I wanted something comfortable, I wanted something beautiful, I wanted something that wont give me too much attention. Subtle things…thats my style.

Oohhhhh And my family memories also pointed out that majority of the time……I wear Jeans. Jeans and shirts….different tops…but majority of my pants are jeans of some kind.

Most new york women wear Jeans year round because of the weather and stuff. Plus work.

I do know how to wear a pair of jeans though so its not like I dont work it like a run way.

So I bought a few non-jean pieces to put on my legs. I have non-jean-leg-pieces but I dont wear them alot, so I bought new ones that I liked.

Jeans will still be worn majority of my time though but its nice to have alternatives and stuff.
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And so yeah….I think I just wrote like 2 entries in one so….I think I should go take a power nap now :D

Someone in my family joked and said that if mental strength was an olympic Game I wouldve won a gold medal. Thats flattering. And kind.

Anyways, I should go sleep because my sweet tooth is calling to me.

Peace be upon yall

Signed
The Mel (Notice the THE part? Makes it sound more official and prestigious……”The Mel would like a word with you”……”the Mel has asked you to do so and so”…..”The Mel has such and suched”

Something tells me today is gonna be beautiful

Lol…you know I can’t help but laugh because… I saw the header that says “Somethin tells me today is gonna be beautiful”. I wrote that on the night before the 8th of August, 2008. I didn’t really KNOW it was gonna be beautiful but I as in this…natural “high on life” mindframe that I intended it to be beautiful. Weather there was an apocalypse and a meteor was heading to destroy our entire history…something just told me it would be…the day would be beautiful. That was the type of mind frame that was going through my head.

Partly because…Mike and me were in our living room and he came next to me, closed his eyes and embraced me. Rocked slowly back and forth and asked if I was hearing the same things he were. I had to admit, I was indeed hearing the same things he was. So I looked up at his closed eyes and he seemed to have been high on life too. That silent music, we heard it so clearly as if it was playing just for him and me. He’s just too romantic for his own good. Love appeals to his higher senses and his spirit and ultimately controls his actions in a relationship. So we just spent a few nights……in our living room….standing up and waltzing back and forth…in a silent….but very energetic and loud room.

It’s very very hard to be a conqueror and a great empirical divine ruler person thing when he has you giggly and makes you feel more feminine than usual. But as far as I’ve remembered, and probably because I’m a Gemini…I’ve been able to juggle multi-multi variations to my personality. Which I think is important for me to say. I DONT have Multiple Personalities and I think thats a misconception. The Reality is, I have VARIATIONS and modifications to my ONE personality. Most women in later years of life, undergo those variations eventually.

But he’s sweet. He never really gets in trouble with me. He gives me little worries…or none to be more precise. He’s a good kid. Sometimes I wonder who this person is, back in our past lives, because we seem so abnormally connected. I think one of the blessings in disguise with him is that he sees the world in a several view that I do and his higher senses appeals to him like I mentioned before. You know….although we are teenagers by law and by society and are expected to be inarticulate vessels, he provides me with no teenage baby mama drama or he said she said nonsense, no K-Fed vs Brit type of stuff or none of that bull sh*t that seems to be the composition of many teenagers today. He is more in tune with his spiritual self and also a human being with great wisdom, and as a result….our relationship seems more…………..good :)

So after this very very romantic mood……..sometimes I like listening to a certain type of music to let me simmer my thoughts down to emotions and provide me with this certain energy to sleep with.

It just so happened that the first thing I grabbed was by Corinne Bailey Rae. A beautiful, beautiful international artist, in every way. Supposedly of course (because seeing is not always believing)…but she seems so lovely. Her voice is indeed angelic. I know we say that about many American artists…*rolling eyes* some that shouldn’t even be dubbed angelic, but she has an angelic voice.

Anyways…..so I closed out my night with her.

You know it’s funny because, when you ask many Americans if they know her, and mostly people in my age group (not to be confused with my wisdom group ;))….they have probably never heard the name ever in their lives.

Her type of music is….almost…..Esoteric in a way. It’s a similar style that Andre 3 stacks uses, Common, Erykah Badu, uhhhh uhhh…Jill Scott….John Legend….Talib Kweli, Mos Def and those “different” artists. Their preference of music is esoteric Primarily it has little or nothing to do with a society that dictates money cash and hoes. :). This Esoteric blend of Funk, Jazz and a whole lot of Soul, is Esoteric to many humans because it only appeals to a person who has a spiritual inclination. Because it has little to do with materialism, like I said.

But I mean, at the end of the day, if your not looking deep into the meaning of the music as I often do, It’s still GOOD SOUNDS….ya know? It sounds good to the ear, whether you have a ignorant or experienced ear. Growing up with the music that I did…..Soul, Jazz and “Old School” and a lot of that good stuff from all walks of life, I truly….appreciate and enjoy and love the type of music that those esoteric artists do.

And I think….it’s a shame….a real shame…that it is….Esoteric. I’m happy that Common and Andre 3 stacks and JIll Scott and some others are well known….But I think Corinne really should get some more American Attention. She’s been on those VH1 and MTV music video lists but I think she should get some MORE mainstream attention…especially to “My generation”. Anyways, if you haven’t checked her music out…give it a try :)
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Ahh fudge…..I wrote all that and I didn’t even started the entry yet.

I just flipped on the Summer Olympics thing :) lol…which was kinda funny cause I was just waiting to see Kobe lmao. And indeed I DID see Kobe. But aint America something?? We took up like a quarter of the space….lol….we had so many a